You’ll find many love songs in my searching section. Like every youth, I was looking for love and, in many ways, was in love with the idea of ‘love’. So I tended to see each relationship through the lens of my naive fantasies rather than reality. Not great for genuine relationships, but it fueled a lot of love songs.

I now look back and see my search for a ‘soul-mate’ as a search for Laura – my wife, best friend, lover, babe, uber-mom of our children, and co-laborer and partner in our Jesus Adventure. In that sense, the songs were ultimately written for her.

Most of the love songs were written for ‘R.B.’. She was a beautiful fragile girl that I became obsessed with, which led to an emotional roller-coaster of intense and destructive behaviors during the few years of our on-and-off-again relationship. It contributed to my suicide attempt and it was only after finding and following Jesus that I was freed from the power of that obsession. I am so thankful for that and pray that she may also have found Jesus and is doing well in Him.

In the Jesus-centered and Jesus-focussed relationship with Laura I have found the real thing – a love, a passion, a deep friendship and a lasting partnership. The worldly obsession (above) was a sad, sick, earthbound substitute for the genuine joy, satisfaction, life and fulfillment that I have been insanely blessed with in the heaven-bound relationship I have with Laura, which is now multiplied by the love in our family of eight kids, multiple sons and daughters-in-love, and many grandkids. Thank You, Jesus.